The past week has been really tiring for me. I didn’t get enough sleep and I’ve been working my arse off in order to get enough hours spent for my freelance job. But I’m happy to be useful for the time being. I know I’ve been productive because of the output that I provide. I pray that things will go accordingly as time passes.
It’s not my responsibility to fill in your shoes. I’m tired and I don’t want to be a resource for you to just call me whenever you need my assistance. I may be harsh because what’s a family for, right? But hey, don’t let it out on me alone. I have other siblings who should wake up and smell that all flowers are not as nice as they seem. I’m pressured in a lot of ways and I have to come up with something just for everybody to stay afloat.
It’s a difficult time for a lot of us. You have to contend with the situation that there will never be a life outside a life. You can’t expect things to be just the same and no matter what people do in order to get back to the way they used to be, it is still hard to just think about something when you know that there’s nothing that will result of it.
I need to shut down because my eyes can’t take it anymore. Too much processing in the brain and instead of working in order to catch up on some tasks. I’m spinning articles and so is my head getting spun in the process.
and my stomach is upset. My eyes are red and my mind is going in circles. I must be insane but I’m probably more sick.
I seldom get sick but I’ve been going countless times to the bathroom to relieve myself. Sigh, I need to get some sleep and have more rest. I blame the air conditioning and the glaring pixels. I face them everyday. I guess I’m just tired in general.
My eyes I mean.
It doesn’t show that I’ve gone from a temporary break despite the burned skin. Probably it’s because of the tired eyes. Yes, they’re red and my lids are failing on me. I’m still tired but I feel better. I guess I’m just thinking too much that I can’t seem to move forward because of too much thinking. hehe. I will be working on some more tasks again and I wish I can comply by the end of the week. Wish me luck.
Tired right now and exhausted that I just want to sleep all day and not care about what’s happening in my work environment. I just came back form Manila and I just attended our summer outing. Complete with being under the heat of the sun all day, I’m all pooped.
I have to deal with it.
At least now I’m in the terminal and I’m bound to fly 30 minutes from now. I’m happy that this pushed through, despite all the trouble I’ve gone through to get here. I don’t have any sleep and I’ll be heading off to work after I arrive so that leaves me to worry about how to get myself to talk to people without sounding tired and wasted.
Oh well, I need to look for something that will help me become at ease with the current environment that I put myself into. It’s already December and I’m glad that there aren’t that many days to spend in school as everyone’s preparing for the holidays.
I’m too tired and I still have a lot of things to do. Homework? I keep delaying it because of this opportunity to create another website. sheesh.
My eyes are tired and I’m running out of dough. I’m just glad that the bonus will be arriving early but I don’t want to be too complacent about it, knowing that it’ll be awhile until we will get our next pay.
Just had our first practice exercise in PE –> ha, I’m still taking Physical Education in school. I still won’t admit that I’m already old and going back to school. I just hope I won’t be a Van Wilder and always think of partying and having a good time; even if it’s one of the things I need to do. It’s far from my personality because of the way I need to settle a lot of obligations while keeping a sound mind a healthy body. I need to get my vitamins anyway.
I feel sick and tired with the current workload that I’m handling. I never expected that I’d handle this much given with my current position. Sometimes, I feel that I’m eating my own words that I wanted growth on why I left my comfortable work environment before. But I know that it’s the system that I hate very much; there seems to be no clear system.
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