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I just got a henna tattoo during a summer party by the company. I just picked a design off the book I scanned without giving it much thought. At least it’s just temporary. But I’m wondering if I’d get a real one, I’m planning that it would be something of a puma or a jaguar. But I’m not too sure where to place it.My colleague said I should a pick a design I wouldn’t regret in the long run cause it’s permanent.

What if I’d get a real tattoo? I’m wondering if she’ll see me again. Yeah right ed, stop connecting what cannot be connected. Still, I want to get one.

You had to do it with guy that has a tattoo. Of all the people, why? I thought I’ve moved on, but you’re still on my mind. We never were together. You were never mine, I was never yours. I still feel stupid, helpless and like a wreck. F*ck love, there’s no such thing. What do I do now? I seem to be at a loss. I’ll never be your first, I’ll never be your last. You’re the only person that can take me from this hellhole, but you ran off with a guy with a tattoo.

I don’t have any other reason as well, I might as well be the inevitable torpe forever. I feel like I don’t have any purpose of living anymore. The more I think about it, it’s still my loss; you never really broke my heart, I was the one who broke it. And I thought I was invincible. I also thought women preferred the “good guys”. When have you been so interested with guys with tattoos?

But what am I assuming; as if you’d fall for me if I’d get one. Dream on ed, dream on. I guess I was wrong; but when have I been right?