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It’s been awhile since I last talked infront of a crowd and it was nerve-wracking that I annoyed myself.

Where was my air? What happened to my vocabulary? Choice of words? I was confident before; but now I’m next to becoming speechless.

Practice, I need more practice. Maybe I should get back to talking.

Elocution… it’s just a fancy term.
Stuttering… it’s still my weakness.

I never imagined I could talk that much in a single seating. Well, when it’s an interesting topic that you’re discussing, of course, time flies.

Some colleagues and I were eating at the pantry, it’s a Friday and we’re almost done with our target for the fiscal month. We were just lounging and talking around. It started around 12:30pm, the next instance when I looked at the time, it was already 4:00pm! Goodness, 3 and a half hours of nonstop talk! Mind you though, we were able to talk with sense. It’s more on business as well.

I’m insecure of myself, honestly. I’m such a negative person that I feel somewhat frustrated because up to now, I still stutter when I speak.

People would say it’s actually a great feat, being able to be almost an all-around person with a thick face, developing his PR skills to every person he meets. The description seems nice but the operative word is still “almost”.

I’m actually more pressured because I still think of what people are going to say. I am still self-conscious that I am my worst critic. Anyway, I have to get this mentality out of my head cause it’s not proper.