Edcel.net - mind games

I’m finally going to get a good night’s day’s rest! Was awake for 24 hours and only slept 2 hours before that and was also awake 14 hours prior. I’m getting a bit wasted that I can’t even keep track of time and remember what happened on what.

I’m glad that we won’t have classes later on for my last subject. I just have to directly to the office and then it’s the weekend off! I’m definitely going to utilize this time to get some shut eyes.

I’ll definitely have more things to do when I wake up because all my assignments are being stacked for the weekend. But for now, I will get my rest!

Just had our first practice exercise in PE –> ha, I’m still taking Physical Education in school. I still won’t admit that I’m already old and going back to school. I just hope I won’t be a Van Wilder and always think of partying and having a good time; even if it’s one of the things I need to do. It’s far from my personality because of the way I need to settle a lot of obligations while keeping a sound mind a healthy body. I need to get my vitamins anyway.

Speaking of health, I’m in a trance because my mind can only comprehend the physical aspects of understanding concepts. I can’t go deeper down my memory in order to recall a certain fact or figure. My mind is deteriorating because of the lack of sleep and the number of assignments and the metrics that I need to meet. But I don’t call myself average but hardworking for nothing. I know I can do this, failure is not even an option.

However, I just need to get the much needed rest that I deserve. The class after this will be a straight, moving towards my shift at work and another straight class tomorrow. I only slept for an hour and a half, I need to stay awake for another 20 hours before I can get the next available rest.

Disclosure:

I can’t believe I’m missing out on a lot of things now that are essential. One would be sleep and another would be missing out on food intakes. Both of these concern my health in the end. I was advised by a colleague who has two full-time jobs and is also studying during weekends that I need to be sure that when it’s time for sleep, I should sleep.

As for missing out on food intakes, I haven’t been able to watch what I eat. However, since I’m getting big, I need to find a solution such as taking a Flat Belly Diet to help me as well. It’s hard to maintain a diet but I don’t think there’s nothing wrong in trying to look your best. It’s a bit complicated as well with the holiday season coming up –> a lot of binge waiting to happen.

I’ve been meaning to go to the gym but now that I don’t have much time, I just have to think of other solutions that will help me out and maintain a healthy lifestyle. Besides, the mid-section is one of the hardest parts to develop, especially with my physique. I tried doing crunches before but I still need to have a food plan that would go with it to maximize my potential.

I’m going back to school and I as of now, I don’t have sleep already. Great, just great. Now that I’m going back to a classroom environment (a returnee and a shiftee at the same time), I need to get my act back together.

I just hope it’s not going to be one of those times wherein I wake up in the middle of the night worrying about a certain subject that I didn’t attend, only to find out at that moment that I was only dreaming and that I wasn’t enrolled.

I need to take supplements now, unless I want to look like a live sample of a skeletal system. Good luck to me, I need to get my diploma now. I need it badly.

I’m so tired of what’s happening at the house already. I just wish I could just go out and escape reality so I can’t THINK at all.

I remembered a time when I was still a kid, I was able to watch some las vegas shows on tv when my older brother was looking for a good channel to stay tuned on. It was in the middle of the night and he thought everyone was asleep; little did he know that I couldn’t sleep so I was watching some flick that needed parental guidance. Anyway, it was a great show, with all the women and sparks that were presented. It made me want to go out and experience the bright side of life, literally.

I’m reduced to becoming a slob. I go to work, eat, sleep, sleep, eat and work. What am I doing? Sure, I may be spending too much time here but the time I’m spending isn’t worth being used here.

I haven’t even visited the gym in a week; and I thought I was serious with keeping an active lifestyle. I still am. But I’m just burned out, really burned out –> hellish like. My eyes are still sore from too much staring at the screen and my mind won’t cooperate in keeping a simple thought. I don’t have much energy when i’m supposed to have tons.

Somehow, everything seems too taxing; even blogging.

I need to get out of this routine, irregular sleep. I usually go to work, pull up my tools and reply to important emails; then eat, then sleep, then try to work, then sleep again. When I wake up again, it’s already way past the half of my shift that I have to extend beyond my number of hours in order to comply with the requirement. Once I finish, I go to the gym and then go home. Then it’s back to the same old shit. I wish I can just hang in some hotel marketing place.

Although the job is already irregular, I know I should find time to make it comfortable. Maybe I just lack discipline.