Edcel.net - mind games

Are you just a mere fantasy that serves as an excuse for me to keep my sanity? As it seems I’m chasing away a f*cked up dream that I’m not even sure anymore what I would be getting in return.

I don’t understand why I expect something when I don’t have anything to give.

I’m running out of reasons to stay alive, despite not achieving the peak of existence.

Our worlds are getting smaller, yet I choose to keep distance.
I can’t sleep anymore.

Everyday, as the world turns and time doesn’t stop, I fear of being stuck in a place I’ve always dreaded. I’m always running, I want to settle down cause I’ve had enough of this crap that I’m in.

What does one do?
When the eyes are welled up, yet you force them not to overflow?