Edcel.net - mind games

The house is a ticking time bomb. Any minute it will explode due to the number of loans that we have and are out to reach us.

If only we could get some Debt relief. Sometimes wishing to win the lottery is too pathetic since you do have some proper education and you could’ve utilized it to think of something better to do in order to achieve financial success. But then again, due to the scope of the problem that it’s hard to handle, and the limited time table to iron things out; it’s very difficult to think straight. When the money you receive every half of the month doesn’t compensate for the money you owe, it seems like a total loss. But I can just think of ways in order for us to get some Debt help. I want to transfer to a different house but according to a colleague at work, I’ll just be running away from the problem, but not totally fixing it.

But all of this Debt consolidation seems to be too much for my 21 year old mind to comprehend. But I have to act maturely. It’s just that I feel like I’m carrying the weight on my shoulder’s; and the heaviness came from somebody else’s mistakes. Still, I’m still part of this family, I just wanted to start things on a blank page but it seems that this is not the case. Oh well, time will tell.

After 5 days of keeping my atm card, it’s gone to the lending company again. I know I shouldn’t complain since it takes a huge deal of diminishing ego just to ask money from your son. It’s just the monotony of the situation that I’m a bit upset about.

They’re going to use the money for the house again. As usual, I’ll be broke for the next 6 months or so. That’s why I take respite in whatever “outing” I can participate in which all the more makes me confused on which priority should come first.

I want to help out in the house without having them to solicit some objectives. I want to share something on my own. But it seems that time is too fast that I get overtaken by it. I know someday, everything will be alright. I just wish I can still reach that someday.