Not feeling very well right now. There’s just so many things I need to do but I don’t have the time to do them.
Photography and Photoshop, CSS and Web Design, ODesk and Freelance Jobs, Internet and Social Media – most of the time, the activities come in pairs but I’m short on the days that I can accomplish them because of thinking of so many things.
I couldn’t do anything as much as I wanted to, and I guess that’s where I failed. Sure, I was physically there but in my mind I needed to get some rest. My back was aching but I wanted to be there to be a friend. Some friend I am, I couldn’t even console to show my sincerity. I feel like ice, so cold and hard. Darn. She didn’t get the job and no matter how hard I tried to sincerely tell her it’s okay, I know it isn’t. I felt the same way when I was in her shoes. But then I had no one to confide how I felt. I guess it’s better if things are done this way, on our own. I admire her determination of not letting nepotism get the better of her. She can easily just follow her family’s footsteps and easily become a boss but she didn’t want to. She wanted to prove herself worthy on her own. Still, I could’ve been a better friend.
Trying to stay awake even if my mind isn’t so I can help out an old high school friend to get into the company where I’m working. Definitely I have no qualms at her communication skills since she’s a goof Communicator. I shouldn’t nervous either because she’s better than most of the people I know. I guess it’s a matter of finding out what will happen that bothers me. Sometimes you get too confident that you’ll never know what hit you in the face whenever things don’t go according to plan. In any case, I’m praying that everything will be alright as I want to help her as well as she’s also looking out for a good job. I better get back to her as her exam’s almost over.
Been busy with things lately. Jobs outside the office where I work has been preoccupying my mind. Sometimes I think I can’t do a task that has been assigned to me which makes me question my capability when i shouldn’t be doing so as this is something that will make me to buy stuff that I’ve always wanted to buy but couldn’t due to the limited budget of my working salary. In any case, I’m glad to get this sideline going and I plan to make more moolah in the process as I set a proper working mode to clear my mind up from things that have been distracting me lately.
I’m back to my old routine. The routine that will require me produce numbers. Somehow, I feel tired and empty even if I just finished my leave. I wish for time to stop, for the pixels to stop blinking, for the clock to stop ticking. I know I just got back from a vacation but I still need a good breather.
I’m still in the midst of doing something while not doing anything at all. Sounds confusing? Yeah, I don’t even get myself sometimes. Well, I came to the office late today, 16 minutes to be exact. I hate being late, good thing the proposed meeting was postponed; or else I’d have to bear the embarrassment of people staring at me for being tardy.
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