Edcel.net – mind games

I couldn’t do anything as much as I wanted to, and I guess that’s where I failed. Sure, I was physically there but in my mind I needed to get some rest. My back was aching but I wanted to be there to be a friend. Some friend I am, I couldn’t even console to show my sincerity. I feel like ice, so cold and hard. Darn. She didn’t get the job and no matter how hard I tried to sincerely tell her it’s okay, I know it isn’t. I felt the same way when I was in her shoes. But then I had no one to confide how I felt. I guess it’s better if things are done this way, on our own. I admire her determination of not letting nepotism get the better of her. She can easily just follow her family’s footsteps and easily become a boss but she didn’t want to. She wanted to prove herself worthy on her own. Still, I could’ve been a better friend.

I couldn’t do anything as much as I wanted to, and I guess that’s where I failed. Sure, I was physically there but in my mind I needed to get some rest. My back was aching but I wanted to be there to be a friend. Some friend I am, I couldn’t even console to show my sincerity. I feel like ice, so cold and hard. Darn. She didn’t get the job and no matter how hard I tried to sincerely tell her it’s okay, I know it isn’t. I felt the same way when I was in her shoes. But then I had no one to confide how I felt. I guess it’s better if things are done this way, on our own. I admire her determination of not letting nepotism get the better of her. She can easily just follow her family’s footsteps and easily become a boss but she didn’t want to. She wanted to prove herself worthy on her own. Still, I could’ve been a better friend.

Trying to stay awake even if my mind isn’t so I can help out an old high school friend to get into the company where I’m working. Definitely I have no qualms at her communication skills since she’s a goof Communicator. I shouldn’t nervous either because she’s better than most of the people I know. I guess it’s a matter of finding out what will happen that bothers me. Sometimes you get too confident that you’ll never know what hit you in the face whenever things don’t go according to plan. In any case, I’m praying that everything will be alright as I want to help her as well as she’s also looking out for a good job. I better get back to her as her exam’s almost over.

Been busy with things lately. Jobs outside the office where I work has been preoccupying my mind. Sometimes I think I can’t do a task that has been assigned to me which makes me question my capability when i shouldn’t be doing so as this is something that will make me to buy stuff that I’ve always wanted to buy but couldn’t due to the limited budget of my working salary. In any case, I’m glad to get this sideline going and I plan to make more moolah in the process as I set a proper working mode to clear my mind up from things that have been distracting me lately.

I lent the book “Rich Dad, Poor Dad” to my brother whom I think needs some form of awakening, the same way the book has inspired me to seek more opportunities outside and not work too much. Although I am working too much since I haven’t really applied Robert Kiyosaki’s words to the fullest (I’ve been working on the left side of the cash flow quadrant the past few months), it’s the thought or the determination to go beyond my office environment is what’s keeping the fire burning for more jobs. I just hope he finishes it soon so he can also see my vision.

Anyway, I’m just maximizing my time at a cafe with some wifi connection to finish some more tasks and then I’ll be off to la la land again to get some more sleep. I’ll be helping out a friend tomorrow so I get my ass off early so I can give her some tips when she applies to the same company where I’m at. Hope everything turns out fine then.

I’m back to my old routine. The routine that will require me produce numbers. Somehow, I feel tired and empty even if I just finished my leave. I wish for time to stop, for the pixels to stop blinking, for the clock to stop ticking. I know I just got back from a vacation but I still need a good breather.

I know what will make this feeling temporarily go away. I should enroll in something that will keep me busy. Busy, busy, busy. Seems like that’s what I’ve been trying to do the whole time. Am I just looking for an escape? A hole in the wall, perhaps.

I feel stuck in limbo again but I don’t need advice. It’s too good for my sake. Right now, I just have to deal with the same old, same old.

I’m still in the midst of doing something while not doing anything at all. Sounds confusing? Yeah, I don’t even get myself sometimes. Well, I came to the office late today, 16 minutes to be exact. I hate being late, good thing the proposed meeting was postponed; or else I’d have to bear the embarrassment of people staring at me for being tardy.

So, since our tools were also down, I just had to check some mails to see what’s new around the corner. Lo and behold! I scanned my messages and I just got approved by PayPerPost! I’m just glad that after building this blog up, I’m able to start earning something from this hobby since I also need the moolah.

I’m very happy to be part of this type of community since I’ve heard rave news about this platform. The best thing about it are the opportunities because I can choose which blog reviews are going to be present as I don’t want to veer too much from the concept of my blog as well.

Well, let’s see what’s in store for me in this type of business. People are too skeptical at this venture at first, but they’ll think twice once I tell them about the benefits of posting. I’m actually happy because even if I’m dead-tired from waking up too early, my eyes grew wide open when I saw the message. I feel like Tom Cruise in his classic movie, Jerry Maguire cause it’s my turn to say “Show me the MONEY!!!”