Edcel.net – mind games

I played badminton with a couple of friends at work. Actually, they were my former colleagues but since I transferred to another account, we don’t get to hangout as often as we could. It was nice as I was playing a full two hours; and to think that we just got off from our shift then. I was so tired already afterwards but still felt restless. Badminton has probably been the only sport I’m good at playing. I suck in all others. At least I got some form of physical activity during the week. But I need to get this headache off first. I’m getting more and more upset at the situation that I can’t sleep but I still don’t find a way to get some.

Your opinion still matters, but hear me out too. Don’t even think that I’m still stuck. It’s just sad knowing that you still have the impression that you’ve thought I’ll always be. Do you see me as a freak? I can’t change that. I just wish you’d open your mind now. People change, remember? That’s been the excuse ever since.

I want to talk but it’s circumstance and life and relationships that have shifted our perception on how we’re supposed to be. Ultimately, I blame pride that shuts down the desire for reconciliation.

How can buildings be the same as islands? How can faith be still recognized when perseverance is deemed useless?

I’m tired of starting the spark when the flames aren’t burning and they’ve lost their glow that ignited because of the uncontrollable truth that lost souls will forever be drifting afloat.

A friend texted me one Sunday morning, inviting me to go to a movie with another colleague. At first, I had to go somewhere else because I was doing some Overtime at work. But then I asked myself if I even had a life, so I agreed; especially since our colleague will be off to Manila next week for training.

We watched Street Kings because the woman wanted to see Keannu Reeves… sheesh. Anyway, it was her treat so I didn’t mind, hehe. But it was also the time when Iron Man was playing in the other theaters. In the end, we had a marathon and watched both.

It was a breather for me, knowing that I get to hang around with two people at work that I’ve grown accustomed with. They’re nice people, not to mention intelligent. We ate at Sbarro and now, I can still smell some pasta on my breath every time I breathe. Anyway, I like to be around these people, we mostly discuss things about work; if the job we chose are what we expected and where we wanted to go with our respective careers. The two people are already managers, the other is an evaluator; each has its own pros and cons. But I’m already comfortable talking about our current situations that there seems to be no problem if I’m with them.

I don’t know what will happen, but I wish to keep this friendship. They’re probably one of the people who’d give me good tips as they’re older. hehe.

A friend was trying to find ways to make me search for a significant other. She told me I needed the experience l so I won’t look ignorant in the future. I digressed though, we have different principles; each can be justified by different situations.

But I appreciate the help. At least somebody’s concerned about my well-being especially in the growing up part.