Had a conversation with my relatives of our lives before. I visited my brother just to check on him and it was of perfect timing since I was able to get a promo fare online. I felt that I had to bond with him so at least he can have a different perspective on how life has been treating us all.
Edcel – a personal weblog mind games and then some.
broken
May 20, 2010 — edcelNow I’m broken. We all are.
This has been a stressful week but I have to deal with it. Family, work, other work; it’s all too conflicting and it’s wasting my time. The decision has been made and actions have been done. We’ll see the consequences but I don’t want to think about it first. I need to do something fast before the next testament arrives.
Irreparable damage
October 17, 2009 — edcelI’m upset; so fucking upset with the whole situation. I shouldn’t even be experiencing this.
dinner at home
September 21, 2009 — edcelIt’s been awhile since I last visited my family at home. After the whole prodigal son scenario, I kept on dropping by on a casual basis. Seldom do I get to taste my mother’s cooking which is what I miss as well. I’m glad that somehow, I had dinner amidst a candle-lit atmosphere because of having no electricity left. Even if there’s a bit of an agenda with the meal, I still wanted to spend time with them. We can talk like adults despite the insults thrown at each other.
catching up for lost time
September 15, 2009 — edcelI’m trying to catch up for lost time in bonding with my brother. I haven’t been really a role model as I can only remember the negative things that I’ve done which is really something I’m not proud of doing. I should be helping out more often and share my blessings. I want to really make a change now that my mind is clearer and I can concentrate more on what I can do rather than what has been done. I’m praying that I can bring back the bond and be a better brother not just for show.
close
April 18, 2009 — edcelI’m glad cause right now, I can talk to my brother without much problem anymore. Unlike before that we don’t talk at all because it had always been a competition for both of us. But now, we’ve come to realize the importance of family and looking out for each other. It’s funny how it is because some people also notice the difference that we’re already in speaking terms. I guess we’ve grown up in a way that we don’t have that queasy feeling anymore of having to discuss topics that are normally talked about.
homework that reminds me of home
February 12, 2009 — edcelWas working on some assignments for some requirements in school. Psychology and History aren’t really my favorite subjects but somehow it made me sad in a way what happened to us.
and then there was light
February 9, 2009 — edcelAfter around 4 months (I think) of no electricity, they now have something to get busy about. Because of the money that they borrowed, they’re starting over. Weird how I say “they’re” when I’m still part of the family. Does that mean that I abandoned them in some sort? Not entirely, but I can’t also say that I’ve stuck and stayed with them all throughout the process of pressure and sacrifice. Because I abandoned ship right at the peak of it all.
it went fine after all
November 19, 2008 — edcelI was planning to go to my pop’s house but they texted me saying that they’re going to SM because that’s the meeting place. I called up my brother who has just finished his classes for the day and we met up in Ayala so we could go there to SM together.
of relatives
November 18, 2008 — edcelI was browsing through the internet one morning and I was updating all my blogs. When I checked my phone, I got 10 missed calls from my brother. I was a bit worried that something must’ve happened. When I checked his message, he told me that my grandmother and cousins (mother side) were here and that they wanted to see us.
giving in
September 18, 2008 — edcelI’m giving in again. I don’t know how many times I’ve already done this but I’m giving in… AGAIN. Of course, I shouldn’t count. This is, after all, for my family; and we shouldn’t count what we give to the people who brought us up.
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