Edcel.net – mind games

I feel pathetic that I can’t hold my booze.

I went out with a couple of ex-teammates at work for dinner with pizza. It was a Friday and a fly day; the two still had work to do but I had home to catch up on. Anyway, I ordered a can of beer just to check how it would taste. It has been a terrible while since I last had booze. I can’t even count how many months it is already. But it’s pretty pathetic that I easily got a bit numb all over after the dinner. It’s understandable that I’d easily get dizzy but it’s really lame that it was just one can, ONE effin’ CAN!

Now, I just got home and felt like typing the incident. I don’t think I’m drunk, I know I can still create a blog entry out of it. I’m just tipsy and spaced out and I’m glad since I’ve never felt like this for a very long time.

Does this mean I should do this more often?

I feel pathetic that I can’t hold my booze.

I went out with a couple of ex-teammates at work for dinner with pizza. It was a Friday and a fly day; the two still had work to do but I had home to catch up on. Anyway, I ordered a can of beer just to check how it would taste. It has been a terrible while since I last had booze. I can’t even count how many months it is already. But it’s pretty pathetic that I easily got a bit numb all over after the dinner. It’s understandable that I’d easily get dizzy but it’s really lame that it was just one can, ONE effin’ CAN!

Now, I just got home and felt like typing the incident. I don’t think I’m drunk, I know I can still create a blog entry out of it. I’m just tipsy and spaced out and I’m glad since I’ve never felt like this for a very long time.

Does this mean I should do this more often?

It’s been awhile since I last got wasted. I don’t think this is going to be a regular occurrence since I’m planning to go back to school too. Anyway, red horse pa rin ako. Next is Strong ice.

Went out with some officemates during Christmas day and ate. A bit of booze and singing in between. I never got to hang out with these guys so it was something new to me, though the ambiance isn’t. But it’s nice to be able to go out with the people and not really talk about work matters. We were there to have a good time and we did. In the end, I got wasted. hehe.

High school classmates texted me, saying they wanted to meet up. As if they’re on some mba programs that’s why they have all the time to hang out.

I was contemplating if I should join them or not. I don’t know really, I’ve become afraid of seeing them and how they would react. Not that I have anything to brag about nor do I have a lot to criticize. It’s just constitutes maybe to my low self-esteem; am I that self-conscious? I don’t even have the right to feel this way as I am the one who has gotten a decent job despite not having a college degree yet. But I don’t know, I don’t want to go back and talk about the old times; since it makes me depressed all the more, knowing that I don’t like what I’ve become. Especially since I don’t want to picture myself of saying things I never want to say, because I’ll be too drunk to care. To think about the hangover I’ll be getting the next day.

So I resulted to texting them, saying I was doing Overtime at work; and I have to pass this one up. White lie, ed.