Edcel.net - a personal weblog

I don’t want to end up being the pathetic geek I always thought I could be. But where’s my coolness, then? I used to be cool. What happened to you, ed? You used to be the image of grace under pressure. You used to have it all.

I wonder if this is the way I pictured myself on how I want to spend my youth. When I read the header of my blog back when I was using a pseudonym in blog-city, I posted something that said, “Even though I don’t have all the answers, at least I know that I have questions”. Right now, I just have too many questions, I need my answers!

I was happy that despite all the confusion and wonderment, I was aware of the things revolving around me to distinguish myself from other people my age. But what has become of me now? Do I even like what I’ve turned out? Still, it’s too early to conclude. But it’s just unlikely of me to be unfazed by modern vices.

I should get wasted more, replace the beach with bars. Get laid often, living a life of partying and booze in clubs; with a cigarette or two. Abuse this body of a 21-year-old single maniac, a healthy one at that. But what’s going on? Being a partypooper is definitely not my goal, I’ll have lots of time when I’m old and cranky. I should stop talking about it as it’s making things worse; all the more attributing to a low self-esteem. Get up ed, get up and drink.

So this is my first post. I’m starting anew. I used to have a journal in Blog-city. But it’s going to close by the end of the year. And les I want to keep that precious two-letter-usernamed blog, I’d have to pay a monthly subscription just to maintain the site; which isn’t an option at all.

I’m deliberating whether I should use Blogspot or Wordpress . To the best of my knowledge, the former has been tried and tested with regard to customizable templates and settings, however I like the freshness, the simplicity and the availability of the pen name of the latter which reminds me of my previous blog. I just wish I can still put a lot of things and adjust this site as I will still be testing some more links in exploring what Wordpress can offer. I also wish this site wouldn’t, by any means, close down for free users like me. I’m still weighing my options though. Hopefully, I will be able to settle here properly.