Edcel.net – mind games

I wish to hone my skill, talent or whatever you might call it in photography and art. I never thought I would actually be inclined to it since when I was young, I used to be more on numbers. But then I guess with today’s age, everybody can be anybody. It’s a world of multi-tasking and you just have to really believe in yourself (harhar, cliche I know) to understand that you can do it. It’s hard especially when people think more about the negative factors that every opportunity brings and usually I tend to just let things happen and sometimes make those criticisms overwhelm me to the point of having to please everyone.

But I’m now leaning to just do what I want since I am entitled to it. It’s still a work in progress but I just have to start pleasing myself more often than others.

I need to be more aggressive.

I drew this using our trainer’s arm as my canvass. hehe. Really, it was cool of him to be willing to have a couple of pens written on his skin as if we were really close. But he’s such a cool guy that it didn’t matter much to him. I don’t have that much things going on in the mean time. I’ve been trying to have a better grasp at my artistic skills *ehem* artistic DRAWING skills as if I know how to draw. This is one of my frustrations cause my works usually come out crappy compared to my brothers. Anyway, at least I know how to edit photos. harhar.

One of my frustrations is being involved in Multimedia. Somehow, I’m inclined to being creative without really pressuring myself to be good at something. I like taking pictures, editing them and showing them to other people. It’s something that I consider a hobby that I enjoy doing, aside from blogging. I was told to take this passion to another level, something that I can try to do as a profession or even just a sideline. Actually, I have plans, but nothing would really surmise as of the moment due to the thought of being unstable is what digresses me.

I dunno why I took up Engineering or Economics in the first place aside from the love of Math. Probably because I’ve had the notion that I wouldn’t really excel in a particular field, but just be good at everything. A jack of all trades, a master of none. Put in me in Business, put me in PR, put me in Customer Service, put me in Arts, put me in Media & Technology. I’ll show some potential, but I won’t fully develop.

Anyway, like I said, I want to share this hobby to other people. I like the way I’m being appreciated for coming up with a good concept or project. I just need to have more focus, since I’m still a bit lost in that part.

Want to work on film.

No creative juice left.

No creative juice left.

Was browsing through some old mail as I was sorting out my messages to free them from clutter. I stumbled upon a mail that contained a link about a certain work of “art” by yours truly. Honestly, this was introduced to me by a blogmate a long time ago; is 4 years already long enough?

I created this picture of a nice guy out of different parts and signs, it seemed great but I didn’t know what I wanted to make out of it in the first place. What matters though is the moment of creating this. A made a new friend despite not being able to meet her personally. But I still can’t believe I still saved this in my mail. But this made me smile; heartfelt smile that is.