Edcel.net - mind games

I’m too tired and I still have a lot of things to do. Homework? I keep delaying it because of this opportunity to create another website. sheesh.

My eyes are tired and I’m running out of dough. I’m just glad that the bonus will be arriving early but I don’t want to be too complacent about it, knowing that it’ll be awhile until we will get our next pay.

School’s back tomorrow and the projects and assignments are still piling up that I didn’t devote as much time here. Tsk tsk. Work on it, Ed. Delay blogging

I’m finally going to get a good night’s day’s rest! Was awake for 24 hours and only slept 2 hours before that and was also awake 14 hours prior. I’m getting a bit wasted that I can’t even keep track of time and remember what happened on what.

I’m glad that we won’t have classes later on for my last subject. I just have to directly to the office and then it’s the weekend off! I’m definitely going to utilize this time to get some shut eyes.

I’ll definitely have more things to do when I wake up because all my assignments are being stacked for the weekend. But for now, I will get my rest!

Just had our first practice exercise in PE –> ha, I’m still taking Physical Education in school. I still won’t admit that I’m already old and going back to school. I just hope I won’t be a Van Wilder and always think of partying and having a good time; even if it’s one of the things I need to do. It’s far from my personality because of the way I need to settle a lot of obligations while keeping a sound mind a healthy body. I need to get my vitamins anyway.

Speaking of health, I’m in a trance because my mind can only comprehend the physical aspects of understanding concepts. I can’t go deeper down my memory in order to recall a certain fact or figure. My mind is deteriorating because of the lack of sleep and the number of assignments and the metrics that I need to meet. But I don’t call myself average but hardworking for nothing. I know I can do this, failure is not even an option.

However, I just need to get the much needed rest that I deserve. The class after this will be a straight, moving towards my shift at work and another straight class tomorrow. I only slept for an hour and a half, I need to stay awake for another 20 hours before I can get the next available rest.

I’ve been living life the past 6 months or so for this and I was very happy because it gave me the opportunity to abuse my body since I don’t have a life. However, they announced that they no longer need it because we’ve met the required number of workforce allotted for our position. It’s quite logical but lonely. hehe.

But since I’ll be going back to school, I guess it’s already fine. At least I wouldn’t have too many hours after my shift because I’d have nothing else to do because now, I have something else to do. Just that I’d have to make do with whatever salary I’d get from now on.

Good luck to me.

It’s never enough.

Payday has come and as I was printing my payslips, I noticed the big difference with my salary compared to what I was earning a year ago. Of course, with all the overtime work I’m rendering (yeah, I don’t have a life), I make sure that it doesn’t go below my expectations. But because of the expenses plaguing me even before I can plot them out, I tend to question my lifestyle.

Why do I pay so much?

I am not yet in school so I don’t need to spare an allowance for it even for tuition. I don’t have a family yet so I don’t need to look for milk for a kid. I don’t have a girlfriend so I don’t have to spend much on cellphone loads. Heck I don’t even go out on Friday night dates so that should leave me thinking less of what to do with the money I earn.

But then, why do I pay so much?

Of course, there are family expenses, payments for different loans I’ve applied, eat-outs and occasional taxicab fare allowances. But it seems that the type of life that I wanted but I can’t have is taking it’s toll.

I just wish I could manage my finances so that I can allocate them properly and create a budget and stick it. The thing is I don’t have any savings account and the money that I earned through other means is slowly going down the drain at times when I’m really broke.

But when is enough, enough? Man’s quest for satisfaction is unending.

The first year, it was my day off.
Last year, I was on the day shift.
This year, I was out of town for a business trip.

Sheesh.

When will I be able to join a Halloween celebration at work?

I leave you with a pathetic attempt at re-living what happened 3 days after the even when I got back to the office.

I’m going back to work. I feel tired, knowing that I’ll return to my daily routine. But I have to adjust first, which is too taxing a task. The temporary respite hasn’t sunk out from my system yet. However, I need to get this out ASAP; before I’ll be labeled incompetent.