makes me wonder
November 20, 2008Posted by edcel in life, pictures.
I’m giving in again. I don’t know how many times I’ve already done this but I’m giving in… AGAIN. Of course, I shouldn’t count. This is, after all, for my family; and we shouldn’t count what we give to the people who brought us up.
However, the problem is with them taking something without me being able to voluntarily give. They take it even before it reaches the palm of my hand which in turn, makes me wonder what worth I have left (tungsten rings?) I don’t see the outcome of my labor cause it’s already gone. And it’s a cycle, a vicious cycle that goes on and on until I can’t give in anymore.
The question in my head is when will this stop? I feel like a wet towel being squeezed until I don’t have water left in me to drop –> pardon the metaphor. But really, am I this weak? My brother, who’s still at odds with our father, is still unyielding. I applaud his determination to be unfazed by words. I can’t do that. I thought I could but I can’t. Now I have to face the consequence, sacrifice and give in… again.