I never thought you’d do this to your own kin. Of all the people, you tested my trust and failed miserably. I should be upset, and I believe I am. I’m just trying my best to divert all the negative reaction to something else. Maybe I just refuse to accept your vice and I still cover it up to show that there’s something good in you.
Edcel – a personal weblog mind games and then some.
signs
October 27, 2009 — edcel
Signs that signify, signs that confuse.
Which one to track, which one to choose?
Too many symbols to set,
too many to interpret.
Just direct me where to go,
I will not stop but I will follow.
looking for substance
October 27, 2009 — edcelThe past few days, life has been a blur. I just feel like I’ve been placed on a track for other people to bet on –> bad simile. I’ve been trying to find meaning amidst all complexities as well as shallowness but somehow I’m running on empty. This isn’t supposed to be who I am and what I do as I live for discovery and exploration. Maybe I’m just looking for substance and worth even in the little things that routine can offer. Darn it, I’m at it again.
softwares
October 26, 2009 — edcelOne can never really tell how important technology is nowadays and how we can use it to the best of our ability. It would be great if we could utilize different softwares that are designed for each and every situation to upgrade ourselves and make things easier when it comes to processing and operations. You can get a Waste Management Software for you to manage trash and wastes, an accounting software for business and many more. It would be great to go beyond old school and adapt so we can take advantage of the knowledge that these programs bring in our lives.
salt water
October 24, 2009 — edcelWhat I would do just to remove my slippers… 
…and dip my feet in the sparkling water… 
…and get stung by a jelly fish. Ouch!
The salt water has many stories to tell.
with colleagues
October 24, 2009 — edcelLast night was good. I’ve never had much opportunity to bond with colleagues at work after our shift. Hence, I decided to invite them out just to hang out and get the mood out of the office and into the weekend. Went to Julia’s somewhere in Lahug to see what the place could offer. I just needed to grab something to eat. Sheesh. I’ve never really gone out to drink on a regular basis. I don’t think this will be often though as I usually hate the after-effects. Now my head is still heavy but I needed to get up.
why ask?
October 24, 2009 — edcelIf it’s been bugging you, it had been bugging me too.
Stop asking stupid questions, silly.
Why ask what is obvious?
Here you are trying to act all innocent and frail and childish.
I’m not that desperate which means I can still stand ground.
random shirt
October 22, 2009 — edcel
One of the shirts that I bought some time last year with a good bargain.
This just goes to show that I’m bored, look at me blogging about a shirt. sheesh.
need to manage my expenses
October 21, 2009 — edcelIndeed I need to. I have been on a splurge lately that I haven’t really made use of the money that I’ve earned to good use. With 2 current loans and a credit card balance to boot, I still have to work on a number of things before I can clear my name. Sheesh.
grooming and work
October 20, 2009 — edcelGood grooming is very important especially for every guy who wishes to stay up the corporate ladder. One can’t really make fun of it as your looks is the first thing that people notice whenever you apply for a job or not. It doesn’t mean that if you’re not well-groomed you’re of no use. But how you project yourself to other people by the way you dress and the way you take care of yourself also has a great factor on how you are balanced in life.
oatmeal and fruits
October 18, 2009 — edcel
Whenever I feel that I want to be healthy, I do my best to eat oatmeal and fruits. Because of the food is rich in fiber and natural antioxidants (haha, I sound like a talent for a coffee ad) I tend to use the bathroom as fast as
loans and debt
October 18, 2009 — edcelI am currently paying off two loans from different lending companies and I also have my credit card bills high up right now. It seems that I am trapped in debt but I’m not really minding it as much. I am glad though that despite having to save enough money just to pay the bills, I am able to earn some extra income online through blogging and such which helps a lot especially at times when I need to spend on basic necessities.
Irreparable damage
October 17, 2009 — edcelI’m upset; so fucking upset with the whole situation. I shouldn’t even be experiencing this.
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