Makes me wonder why I don’t pursue this passion at editing and creating pictures. I know I’ve got a lot in store and I can study a course that would enhance whatever skill I have in me. I’ll have to wait till September, probably. I wish I could support myself so I can really get on the right track in making sure that I go somewhere, somehow.
Edcel – a personal weblog mind games and then some.
transit
August 19, 2009 — edcelThere’s something about yellow lights that calm my eyes as if life is in transit and we are nothing but a spec of dust. We are blinded by shadows we’ve cast upon ourselves and we can’t do anything about it. These lights that surround takes away the feeling of looking beyond. Instead they make you just look at the present. You realize that you are where you need to be. You may move from a different state but you can just stay as is. Still, you know you are headed to the right direction because of the trail of lights. You may not be happy right now, but sooner you’ll go home and expect nothing less.
smoothie
August 19, 2009 — edcel
Craving for something fruity and cold. Probably a milk shake or anything of that sort. I find myself dehydrated most of the time which is why I need liquid to be replenished in my system.
hard labor
August 19, 2009 — edcelI wonder what it would be like to be in a blue-collar job; I mean really get into the dirt and be paid on an hourly basis. I guess it adds to the manhood of every guy if ever he gets into the trade. On my part, I’m working in an office environment, sitting on a swivel chair with a desk and a computer that has access to the internet. It seems as if I won’t get my hands become calloused in some way. But I have tried working on the dock, carrying loads of crates for delivery during our banana business when it was still good. But I’ve never really worked on a construction site or a land mine.
my back still hurts
August 19, 2009 — edcelI was complaining a couple of days ago that my back hurts. Up to now, it still does. I hope this isn’t something serious, or else I’d have to go to a doctor to have it checked. It pains me whenever I try to turn my head to the right or left. I think it has something to do with my spine and I’m actually afraid cause my sleeping position is restricted and I’m scared that it will affect whatever physical activity I’ll pursue in the future. I hope this will just pass, I’m really serious about it too.
dare you to ask
August 19, 2009 — edcelTell me I effed up and I’ll tell you how many times I saved your ass off. Tell me that I don’t deserve it and I’ll tell you that you don’t deserve me. Tell me that I should’ve known better and I’ll tell you that you should expect less. Tell me that you didn’t like what I did and I’ll enumerate the times that you mentioned that to anybody else.
once I was pampered
August 19, 2009 — edcelWhen I was in Manila, it was nice because they gave me a room for myself that I could stay in which is pretty cool with all the eRoomService bedroom furniture available. I wasn’t pressured as much because all I had to do was sleep and then work. Although there were the occasional hangouts in the mall, I wasn’t able to spend as much. I actually miss my lifestyle there because I was pampered a lot which made me feel like a king or someone very important. It was fun while it lasted and things had to go back to reality which is why I’m here and working again.
reason why my back aches
August 18, 2009 — edcel
Yes, but I’m just joking about this one being the reason. It’s possible that I just got this off from the pressure of the massage that I took to relieve myself from stress. Funny thing is that I’m more stressed now because of my back aching. Bummer
house hunting
August 18, 2009 — edcelI was helping out a friend with her job application as well as her house hunting. It was nice to be able to help out somehow since before, I was the one who needed help. At least I could return the favor somehow. It was tiring in some way because you have to look for a place to stay and you have to do it fast since you don’t want to waste time and you have to act fast. I didn’t get enough sleep. Looking for a number of Chicago Apartments in the place is a bit of a task to handle though.
could've done better
August 18, 2009 — edcelI couldn’t do anything as much as I wanted to, and I guess that’s where I failed. Sure, I was physically there but in my mind I needed to get some rest. My back was aching but I wanted to be there to be a friend. Some friend I am, I couldn’t even console to show my sincerity. I feel like ice, so cold and hard. Darn. She didn’t get the job and no matter how hard I tried to sincerely tell her it’s okay, I know it isn’t. I felt the same way when I was in her shoes. But then I had no one to confide how I felt. I guess it’s better if things are done this way, on our own. I admire her determination of not letting nepotism get the better of her. She can easily just follow her family’s footsteps and easily become a boss but she didn’t want to. She wanted to prove herself worthy on her own. Still, I could’ve been a better friend.
marathon
August 18, 2009 — edcelI’m already done with my membership from a local gym for the month and it seems that I’ve already gotten thinner with my current weight since I lost about five pounds in total and people have already noticed that I am indeed thinner. In any case, I wish to continue working out so I can build some muscles so I wouldn’t look lanky.
back 2 back
August 17, 2009 — edcel
At Bo’s coffee
First thing’s first, Debbie’s back from her stint in Manila and I joined her and Doi last night to grab a bite to eat. She was there with other trainers for 2 months and it’s nice to see a familiar face again. I remember my time when I was there for a business trip, it was nice because somebody had to take care of things for you and you don’t have to worry that much. Anyway, Free food again! bwahahahaha.
helping out a friend
August 17, 2009 — edcelTrying to stay awake even if my mind isn’t so I can help out an old high school friend to get into the company where I’m working. Definitely I have no qualms at her communication skills since she’s a goof Communicator. I shouldn’t nervous either because she’s better than most of the people I know. I guess it’s a matter of finding out what will happen that bothers me. Sometimes you get too confident that you’ll never know what hit you in the face whenever things don’t go according to plan. In any case, I’m praying that everything will be alright as I want to help her as well as she’s also looking out for a good job. I better get back to her as her exam’s almost over.
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