Edcel.net - mind games

I’ve never been this wasted in a very long while. But I’m glad, I only have how many days left until I’ll be busy again. Besides, it’s the holidays and I’m still young and I haven’t partied as much since that small chunk of my youth has already been overlapped by work and such. That’s why I’m making amends without really compromising anything since I also have the right to do so.

Cheers everyone! To a new year!

You don’t have to force yourself. Who am I for you to even care about? I don’t want it. It makes me feel awkward especially since I want to be nice but I can’t even place it as one of the issues I need to worry about. My life is already complicated as it is and it’s adding more stress in my daily routine already. I don’t mean to be rude, I just want to think about it.
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There are times when I’d wonder if you really want me to be there or I’m just present so you can have your chance to do whatever you want without people really questioning your motives. I sometimes feel left out when I’m supposed to be the one who brought you there. I don’t like the way you assume situations as if everything’s alright with me when it’s not. At least give me a little respect and a better response; but even I should know better that it’s already part of your personality and I just have to deal with it already. It makes me sick when I’m bossed around as if you own everything but then try to redeem yourself after you’ve finally made use of me and come to realize that what you were doing was way out of boundary even for your taste.
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Thank you for the time you’ve spent and for the help when you didn’t have to. Even when you were tired from your own trip. But I’m asking you a favor in a nice way. Don’t ever mention that topic up as it’s the same question I ask myself every chance I get when things are just stationary and images float in my head out of nowhere. I know it’s because you’re concerned about my welfare and that life should have balance but when you think about it, I don’t have that. I’m glad though that you have been careful and you just want to know what’s going on but it just makes me all the more closed.
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It’s upsetting to realize that people can be so ignorant and narrow-minded (because of their ignorance). Sure people have the right to wonder but it just makes me all the more displeased that they have to think otherwise. Whatever happened to friendship for friendship’s sake? Has it all been a joke because it has become ideal? There are no need for explanations because they don’t do anybody good.

Two days it will be a new year. I’m still savoring every minute of my temporary break. However, despite the many challenges this year had given me, 2008 actually brought me more or good than harm. I just want to say goodbye in advance, before anybody else does.

Got myself a new pair of chucks.

This is the first original pair that I bought since at first I didn’t want it to buy one because everybody had one. I’m a nonconformist but I have to give the label up today. I actually bought a couple of shoes when I was in Greenhills during my Manila trip but because they didn’t last long. I said to myself that it’s going to be the last time I’m going to compromise quality over pricing. I figured I should  invest in a really good pair of shoes that would last long because the previous ones just served their purpose, just to be some cheap thrills.

I was planning to get a Puma but I couldn’t find a pair that I could find to my liking. I don’t like my gear to be too flashy and attracts attention. I bought a couple of chucks instead. At least it’s not that loud. Ah, the wonders of being able to swipe that plastic. hehe.

I got my confirmation just now so I guess my trip will push through now. Good thing I still have a bit of a time grabbing some snacks and packing up. Probably 7 hours from now, I’ll be back to the city of falling leaves.

Went out with some officemates during Christmas day and ate. A bit of booze and singing in between. I never got to hang out with these guys so it was something new to me, though the ambiance isn’t. But it’s nice to be able to go out with the people and not really talk about work matters. We were there to have a good time and we did. In the end, I got wasted. hehe.

Everybody’s more or less going to their homes,
I should put mine into place.