Edcel.net - mind games

I’m too upset right now I’m having a headache just thinking about it.
When will people really change?
Somebody throw me a pill.
Aarghh.

&@^#&%$^%*@^(!@&)(*#@)(*#*(&$^&^@%!

That’s supposed to be me typing curses. Anyway, the trip that we were planning to have was postponed… AGAIN.

I was all too excited and ready, well not really ready since I didn’t pack my things, so I could go back to my hometown and meet my relatives but there were some problems with the agenda of our trip. I’m just upset that it didn’t push through; of course, in the long run it would be better off that it didn’t because safety is more important.

It’s just that I sacrificed my time to work two shifts in one seating in order to squeeze my schedule. But now I’m just staring at the screen and typing away on this 19″ monitor. Oh well, I guess I’ll do the same routine next week. Hopefully, I can file for a leave instead.

I’ve been up for more than 24 hours, most of the time I spent at work since I had a double-shift (meaning, I completed two days worth of duty) because I have some appointments later on. Now, I feel restless but I’m having a migraine. I’m hungry but I want to go and sh*t.

Anyway, this will be for today at least; hoping that our plans to go South will push through. But I have to get ready though and purchase some golfballs.

I want to hit the gym!
I want to hit the gym!
I want to hit the gym!

I’m still chanting –> you call that a chant, Ed?

Still, I want to hit the gym as I’m on the verge of applying for a membership just around the corner. I figured I have to bulk up already to at least add some mass to my body.  I’m not skinny anymore but it seems my body’s not that well-proportioned either. I plan to work my chest out an my arms. I better get some used golf balls.

So when will it be? I hope I won’t delay it anymore. It’s the least I can do since I’m not doing anything yet with the free time as I’m awake.

Gym, gym gym!

Religion is just a bunch of rules to make sinful people behave.

I heard this phrase as I was hurrying off to work. I rode a taxi and it was raining hard when the driver was still waiting for the red signal to turn green. While my eyes were fixated on drops of liquid trickling down the dashboard, the radio was tuned into a station that played light rock songs. When a portion of the show was focused on reading a passage, the phrase was then discussed with another inspirational message I wasn’t able to remember. Only that slogan was the one that I tried to absorb. It made me think that it’s quite true in a sense.

That moment made me remember a certain post 2-3 years ago when I discussed about which is better; to be spiritual or religious. I was more into the former because I stopped becoming the latter when I discovered life. Though I believe I shouldn’t have stopped becoming religious because I’m getting closer and closer to the state of insanity. I was able to write that post since it was also the hype of the Da Vinci Code wherein people were talking too much about the movie.

Anyway, faith and religion, these are two things that are tucked away at the back of my head; trying to get buried but would pop up every now and then. It’s sad cause I was such a Catholic before, even memorizing all the mysteries of the rosary, the books in the Bible, the Seven Sacraments and Deadly Sins, etc. The list can go on and on. I felt good singing worship songs every Friday of the month for the mass. I always had a high grade in Christian Living or Religion classes. But now, I seem to question everything. It came to a stage wherein I figured that I didn’t have to be so religious. Although as of the moment, it seems that I’m even losing the faith which makes it worse. Where had it gone off?

I know I just need to believe in something again; but I don’t know where to start anymore. Because I seem to question the motif already that before I can even begin, I find something bad in the end. I wish I could change, but the drive still isn’t that strong which makes me ponder if I really want alteration. One thing for sure, I don’t want to experience an instance where I have to be down on bended knees and the head flat on the ground to realize what I’m wasting. I don’t want to be at my worst just to gain consciousness of what is of utmost importance. However, it seems like a drastic change is what is necessary to slap me in the face to the truth. But I don’t want it right now. Lord, help me.

I was doing my daily routine at work, I went to the pantry at the middle of my shift and I was told that my former colleague is planning to go to Singapore to work. I was a bit shocked because I never thought she’d have an interview almost right away.

A lot of people at work are actually scouting for some good employment opportunities abroad. So far, I’m still stuck in the middle because I want to go out of the country mostly because I just plan to enjoy the vacation, not mainly to work. But with these trying times, you have to be practical and take risks.

I’m actually helping her scout for different hotels abroad so she can stay there for the time being before she can settle in. When I checked some information online, I stumbled upon HotelsCombined which I found some data of the different hotels that would cater every traveler who wants to know what are the good places to stay for the mean time.

I saw this Peninsula Excelsior Hotel which is just perfect for her since it’s easily within reach from different business and entertainment centers in the area. It’s an added plus because she doesn’t have to worry because she can slowly familiarize the place where she’s staying that’s near her work.

Which reminds me of another friend who’s just been to an Asian journey from Cambodia to Laos to Thailand. He told me that I was very helpful when I told him about Nova Lodge in Pattayam Thailand because it was established  in which adds a bit of history 1964 to the different places he’s been to. The good thing about it is that the place is very affordable and within his budget.

I can spend my time scouting for various hotels which is indeed very important especially if one is wary and doesn’t want to scratch his head when he arrives at his destination.

I’ve been planning a lot of travel lately, but mostly within the country. It seems that I really love to explore different places. At least with this newfound hobby, I won’t have any trouble looking for a good place to stay. As for me, my papers are in the works so  I could go somewhere in Australia so I can ride the waves that the land down under has. I’m halfway through my savings already so I can be prepared. But I know locating a hotel there wouldn’t be any problem.

The things I do just for the sake of getting a good picture. It sometimes amazes me. I just hope I won’t run out of skills to show.