Edcel.net - mind games

I got a message from my friend who’s supposed to tour me that she couldn’t because her pop was sick and she needs to attend to him. I got this message when I was strolling at the mall to plan on buying the things I needed for my trip.

When I read the text, I was a bit dismayed because I had been preparing for this trip since I anticipated this very much and it’s been awhile since I last visited the place where I spent adolescence.

But I wasn’t angry, disappointed at first, maybe; but not angry. I realized that I was more concerned of the father of my friend’s condition; wishing them well. I don’t want to stay in a place where I’ll become a problem so I just tried to postpone it some other time; if there is such.

When I’m all by myself, I think about ways on how I won’t be alone.
I always want to get out of the rut I’m in, but I wonder if I’m just being tested by a Higher Being.

I’m not feeling well.

I went to work last night, thinking I’d be able to finish a lot of evaluations but I was dismayed. I came in at 9pm and around midnight, I frequently visited the restroom just to relieve myself. I thought it was just a simple case, but I traversed back and forth my desk and the toilet 5 times. I also threw up in some cases which I rarely often do.

I asked for some meds from our clinic and wanted a mattress to rest but when I went there, the bed was already occupied by another patient. When I went to our lounge, all the bean bags were taken. Sheesh. I wanted to go home, but I was too weak that I just brought my pillow and slept on my station.

I went home afterwards.

Now, I’m here typing about how sick I am. I’ve never been this vulnerable, and I thought I was invincible. Was it because I’ve overworked the previous days? I don’t think so. But I have to talk this out with my manager. I feel pathetic that I was unproductive last night. I have to work double next shift then so I can justify whatever leave I’ll be taking.

Oh, shoot; I almost forgot, I’m on leave this Friday and Monday that I have to submit my evaluations in advance. F*ck, I feel sick even more just thinking about work.

Because I’ve been frequenting the bathroom, obviously I’m sick. I’m listening to my colleagues and their advices with regard to keeping myself hydrated as well as taking care of my health.

Today, gatorade has been my best friend. There’s something with electrolytes, hehe. I’m not very good with medical terminologies and I have a colleague who is a graduate of Biology so I trust him and some mothers as well.

I also temporarily stopped eating oily foods, I’m trying my best to eat dishes with vegetables. Just so that I could have more fiber in my meals to help ease the process of relieving myself.

I should also refrain from using the computer too much as well, as it seems like I’ve been facing the monitor often. Good thing I have my shades with me already. I don’t care if other people will react to my wearing some sunglasses inside the office. Because my eyes are actually straining already from reading on bright lights so this adds to the protection.

One can never be too careful, it’s a good thing that I have people who know better than I do; it’s time for me to listen.

As I was getting ready for work, I dropped by my locker just to get my headset so I can start the day right. When I went to the locker room, I noticed that my locker had a tag indicating that I have to find a new partner since my previous one is no longer with the company where I’m in. There needs to be 2 people in one locker so I’m still finding somebody to share.

I just don’t like the fact that I have to submit some documents again because I have to apply all over and I hate the task of processing files just because it’s taxing knowing that you don’t want to be in the such a situation. But one good thing that brought this attention is that I can change another location. I believe I’ll be assigned another locker number which is great only for the sole reason that I hate stooping down every time I open it because it’s on the bottom-most part.

I took a picture of the locker that I’m currently assigned to just to let you see how tiring it is squatting down to get my things.

I just hope hope that my new locker mate will be clean and organized as I don’t like clutter cause it just ruins your hectic day all the more. I don’t want to treat it like a trash can cause this is where I also put my toiletries for my hygiene. Anyway, come June 2, I’ll be saying goodbye to it and good riddance!

Whoa, I can’t believe I reached my hundredth post this early. Well, maybe it’s a bit late already. But knowing that I just started this blog as a way to express myself even better and not feel too constricted about it, I can say it’s already a feat. I just started this blog as an extra way to talk about anything that I usually am not open to talk about with people. However, writing and publishing blog posts has become a regular occurrence. I even update more here than anywhere else. My other blogs are just there still though, but this is the one I already treasure the most.

Cheers to me then, I hope I can reach my next hundred soon.

I came home from work at 9am and went directly to bed. When I woke up, I just heard my brothers arguing about something. My mother told them to stop and that they should behave cause it’s our father’s birthday. I was still in a dazed mood until I heard that line. I forgot my pop’s birthday. I completely forgot about it.

It’s not that we usually celebrate birthdays with something prepared, it’s just that I could’ve at least remembered the date. Just a mental note to keep in mind. Heck, I don’t even know how old my folk’s are. When I’m presented to fill up my personal documents, and I need to write their birth dates, I’d have to get back to those parts because I don’t know.

I feel ashamed of myself now.